Returning Back to Life
I can honestly say I forgot how to live. I’ve been out of the hospital for a little over a month now. I can’t believe that life is this great. I survived the hospital and I appreciate it so much more. Little things make me so happy, but in all reality, I’ve just been really blessed the past month. It just keeps getting better.
The Last Few Months
In three months, I went from laying on my back for three whole weeks to this last week being cleared for four hours. I was on four antibiotics, with a PICC line… now I’m on no antibiotics. I was on two pain medications three months ago, I haven’t taken any since the middle of July. I went from not being able to choose my own food, to making my own food. I can wear normal clothes rather than a hospital gown. I don’t have to listen to constant beeping and nurses in my room every night.
My bed is my own and it’s big and comfortable. I can take a shower when I want to take a shower. I can stay out past midnight (that hasn’t even happened yet). I can have a wine cooler. (Just one) I can go out with friends, be included in plans, go to concerts. I have freedom. This is INSANE TO ME.
I’m incredibly thankful for what happened to me. I’m thankful I’m alive. I’m thankful I was taught that life is precious. It took nine months, but I am so thankful for everyone and everything now that I’m ready to see what’s in store. I’ve already gone to the state fair and to see Hunter Hayes at the county fair (that itself was a God-filled night I’ll forever remember). The next day we went to the zoo and saw the elephants. I saw Jurassic World 2 TWICE because I love dinosaurs. I went to a movie with a friend for the first time in YEARS and it was the best day. I’m just so happy with life. It’s surprising me in the best ways.
Back to Life
Looking forward, one week from today I see THE Justin Timberlake with the best friend. The guy I’ve had a crush on the longest. A month from yesterday I leave for Florida, and that’s going to be fantastic. (Pray there isn’t a hurricane) I can’t wait to go to Universal and see more dinosaurs. If you didn’t know by now, I like dinosaurs. We see Brett Eldredge too while in Florida so that’s fun. So many fun things are coming up even before my birthday.
I’m looking forward to so many things. I’m so grateful to be able to do these things. I had to wait, and it was a LONG TIME before I felt okay, but I’m feeling better than I can remember being. I thank God for it multiple times a day. There is nothing too small that I don’t appreciate. I appreciate doing my dishes and my laundry even when I say I hate it. I have the ability to be independent and I don’t want to lose it ever again.